Lonliness

This summer I was doing my MBA internship and at the same time was preparing for the Chartered Financial Analyst Level 1 exam and hence was staying at one of our family friend’s house. Out there in Mumbai at Mahalaxmi such a huge house in a posh area only a few can afford and being a guest at a Judge’s house hospitality was good. However I learnt a few things staying at their place and shall like to write about the same sometimes later and shall concentrate on something else....
During the same phase I got myself tested for Jaundice on recommendations of my doctor and it turned out to be positive to my despair...... Alas I had to leave my summers mid-way (although I completed it for 6 weeks it was only 75% of the desired project time)
I booked my tickets for Nagpur and flew on Indigo to my hometown in a Jaundiced condition. Back home the scene was different, when Mumbai was going great at 34 degree Celsius Nagpur was sizzling at 45 to 47 degree Celsius. When I landed at Nagpur my parents were waiting at the airport and were eagerly waiting for me. As soon as I reached I could see the sense of relief on my father’s face, contentment of mother and reached home. Initially I liked the status of being cared and being looked after and soon days passed and to my mind I could just see TARGET 6 that is 6th of June my D-Day because I had to appear for my CFA exam and I wanted nobody to disturb me and just felt the beauty of being lonely and to oneself... The felling was that nobody should come and meet me and nobody should disturb me I was missing the Independence that I enjoy at Mumbai and was feeling a bit caught up between the devil and the dead sea.... Soon the days passed and I again flew back to Mumbai to appear for my exam and felt happy about the same. As soon as I reached Nagpur the loneliness of different kind struck me. I had practically nothing to do I was going about goal-less. Trying to read books and watch T.V. I thought I could do some value addition however I was and am facing a total failure.
Loneliness which I wanted desperately just a fortnight back I am just really averse to the same and I hate it now. The fact that I am staying at my home for a long time (a month) and have no work to do makes the life miserable. All others have work to do for them and you are left lonely. At the same time I realize that you remain a mere guest back home and everything is foreign which your own year back was. I now am getting a strange sensation that nothing is mine and I do not possess anything.
And soon the date of departure was nearing and I knew I am going to get my independence of being all by myself the tide in my mind turned and hence I realized the living in a sheltered atmosphere is much better as compared to being by oneself coz mothers tender care and fathers support is something you can never get anywhere else in this world.
THANKS PAPA and MAMA
Tumchach
Abhishek